Many years ago my father gracefully grew old and died at age 93, he had a long and happy life with a family that loved him dearly.
I can't recall exactly why, but at some stage (towards his end) his doctor prescribed morphine to him, and it change him dramatically. He lapsed into a dream-like state in which his family couldn't comunicate with him as before.He'd nod off like a heroin addict.
Nightly, as a family, we'd generally sit around the television and interact, laugh, comment, etc.
But the morphine changed our relationship, changed my father.
Week by week the doctor increased his dosage until dad drifted off and died.
In the following article Linda Horan said "What I have in front of me is not opioids, and that's the most important thing to me. I did not want to go out in an opioid haze. I wanted to be awake and aware as long as I can."

I feel the same, I've practised vipassana meditation off and on for the past 35 years to cultivate awareness and insight. I don't wish to spend my last moments in this world in an "opioid haze" I'd like to experience those last minutes of life, it's a pretty special time.
Who knows, maybe I'll cry out for opiates, but I'd like the choice and not have to break the law.
As my friend said this morning  "cannabis is a herb, not a drug. Drugs are what pharmaceutical companies make, herbs are made by god."

Woman who fought for medical marijuana ID card dies.

Linda Horan sued state for card to let her buy marijuana in Maine.

MANCHESTER, N.H. —An Alstead woman who successfully fought to get a medical marijuana ID card in New Hampshire before state dispensaries opened has died.
Linda Horan, 64, sought medical marijuana to help relieve the pain and nausea that she experienced from stage 4 lung cancer.

Horan sued New Hampshire to get a medical marijuana ID after state health officials determined that they couldn't issue ID cards until after state dispensaries opened. Horan said that if she had an official ID from New Hampshire, she could go to Maine to buy and use medical marijuana.

A judge ruled in November that the state could begin issuing ID cards once it was clear where the dispensaries would be built and who was building them. Since that requirement was met, the Department of Health and Human Services could issue the ID.

Horan bought marijuana in Maine in December.

"What I have in front of me is not opioids, and that's the most important thing to me," she said. "I did not want to go out in an opioid haze. I wanted to be awake and aware as long as I can."

Rep. Renny Cushing, D-Hampton, confirmed Monday that Horan had died. Cushing helped Horan in her fight to get her medical marijuana ID card.


reference: http://www.wmur.com/health/woman-who-fought-for-medical-marijuana-id-card-dies/37755522